(text-size:2)[(text-color:#5e548e)[SCHRÖDINGER'S REALITY]]
//or, MILES DUENDE'S NO GOOD VERY BAD YEAR,
or, GOD HAS CURSED ME FOR SEEMINGLY NOTHING
or, A REFLECTION ON A YEAR FROM THE OTHER END OF A MIRROR//
[[begin]]I don't actually... remember much before (text-style:"sway")[(text-color:red)[''THE INCIDENT'']]. At least, personal memory-wise. I know (text-color:#9F86C0)[//he//] has a lot of memories, a LOT, but... for me? No real dice.
It's... It's real damn confusing. So, for clarity's sake, I will do the best separation I can. Whenever things are in (text-color:#5e548e)[this color (#5e548e)], I'm referring to (text-color:#5e548e)[myself]. Miles, the system member. Whenever things are in (text-color:#9F86C0)[this color (#9F86C0)], I'm referring to (text-color:#9F86C0)[Miles Duende, the roleplay character]. Hope that makes sense. Right.
(text-color:red)[[[... You mentioned something about an INCIDENT?|selection]]]Right, right, (text-color:red)[''THE INCIDENT'']. Well, there's multiple. ... Four actual incidents and two times it //should've// happened but didn't.
Okay. Which (text-color:red)[''INCIDENT''] do you want me to go into detail on?
(text-color:red)[''[[FIRST BLOOD|incident 1]]'']
(text-color:red)[''[[I LOVE UNDERTALE|incident 2]]'']
(text-color:red)[''[[KNIFE BLOCK|incident 3]]'']
(text-color:red)[''[[KILL BILL|incident 4]]'']
(text-color:red)[''[[THE CAVE|encounter 1]]'']
(text-color:red)[''[[RADIOHEAD|encounter 2]]'']
[[credits]](text-color:#9F86C0)[A ripped chest against an apartment complex's hallway.]
(click:"hallway")[(text-color:#5e548e)[I remember staring slackjawed at my laptop. Just sort of... in some sense of horrified awe. I don't think I //cried//, but I metaphorically wept. I think I did actually hear a flatline sound, but it was probably (text-color:#d3744d)[Tillman] being funny with a soundboard.]]
(click:"flatline")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[When does a person go into the past tense?]]
(click:"past tense")[(text-color:#5e548e)[I couldn't really... I was somewhat unconsolable for a bit. I mean, I knew that I'd come back, sure, but... God, it was //weird//.]]
(click:"weird")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[Never got a real apology besides "whoops sorry lol won't do it again".]]
(click:"apology")[(text-color:#5e548e)[Then again, it's been so long that I'm not sure if closure would even... amount to anything, not even //counting// the certain... circumstances.]]
(click:"do it again")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[Wearing a stupid t-shirt in the cold.]]
(click:"cold")[[[Back|selection]]](text-color:#9F86C0)[A false sense of security. Think it was //The Princess Bride// I was told we'd be watching.]
(click:"watching")[(text-color:#5e548e)[She told me she didn't know that the catboy'd try to kill me, but it would've been //amazing// if the incidents were related.]]
(click:"related")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[A bit of a blur. Raised a shotgun, foolishly.]]
(click:"shotgun")[(text-color:#5e548e)[Too harsh of an opening on my part, but I was a bit jumpy.]]
(click:"jumpy")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[Grabbed by the shirt collar. Dangled over the open maw of concrete and metal. Hopefully I'd be knocked unconcious on the steel beams, or worse.]]
(click:"open maw")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[Always was afraid of heights.]]
(click:"heights")[(text-color:#5e548e)[... After the impact, I just kind of... sat there, once more. ... At least my things were collected?]]
(click:"once more")[[[back|selection]]](text-color:#9F86C0)[The culmination, at least partially, of a long-running feud.]
(click:"feud")[(text-color:#5e548e)[I remember profuse apologies before and after it happened.]]
(click:"it happened")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[A chance encounter, seemingly.]]
(click:"chance encounter")[(text-color:#5e548e)[I kept thinking to myself, ''"Oh god, when's it gonna happen?"'']]
(click:"Oh god, when's it gonna happen?")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[The mistake of a handshake.]]
(click:"handshake")[(text-color:#5e548e)[It was... honestly, pretty fast? I think it took under an hour, which is saying something for Discord RP.]]
(click:"Discord RP")[(text-color:#5e548e)[//Pick up a knife and stab a familiar warm body~//]]
(click:"body")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[And, to top it off, it ruined my most important flannel.]]
(click:"flannel")[[[Back|selection]]]
(text-color:#5e548e)[I knew something was //coming//, I just wasn't sure when, exactly.]
(click:"coming")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[Dripping that wouldn't stop.]]
(click:"stop")[(text-color:#5e548e)[I thought I'd just be experiencing a regular ''Scales jumpscare''. I was wrong.]]
(click:"I was wrong.")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[Nonchalance in the face of death.]]
(click:"death")[(text-color:#5e548e)[I nearly started screaming when I was asked to go into first person and saw (text-colour:#9d1515)[it].]]
(click:"it")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[The feeling of all-too familiar cloth. A machete's unsheathing. Silence.]]
(click:"Silence.")[(text-color:#5e548e)[... Terrifying and wonderful at the same time.]]
(click:"same time")[[[Back|selection]]](text-color:#5e548e)[A run-in with death that, //somehow//, I got away from. However, I couldn't say the same for (text-colour:#2d9f34)[him].]
(click:"say the same")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[Stuck in a cave and surrounded by tar. A (text-colour:#2d9f34)[body] next to me. I was trapped, and had only one way out.]]
(click:"one way out")[(text-color:#5e548e)[I was terrified. I thought I couldn't make it, that whoever was coming would get in and find a bunch of corpses.]]
(click:"corpses")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[Yet, I refused to just accept fate. I had a fully-loaded revolver and I knew what I had to do.]]
(click:"had to do")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[I killed that godforsaken thing.]]
(click:"godforsaken thing")[(text-color:#5e548e)[To this //day//, I'm still not sure if it... counted as killing a person? I don't know, //are// golems sentient? If they are...]]
(click:"If they are")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[It could've gone worse, but it could've gone better.]]
(click:"better")[[[Back|selection]]]
(text-color:#9F86C0)[Thank god for mercenaries.]
(click:"mercenaries")[(text-color:#5e548e)[I'd.. suspected that I probably wasn't gonna die, and I did suspect that (text-colour:grey)[somebody] would show up, but oh my //god//. Was on the edge of my seat the whole time.]]
(click:"whole time")[(text-color:#9F86C0)[And thank god for being able to run fast, too. It was a close call.]]
(click:"close call")[(text-color:#5e548e)[It was, like, honestly absurd how well everything lined up. From the fact that I guess she just, like, forgot Combs was there, or CHOSE not to target the moff, and that I could get out with little more than just some ominous grafitti on a wall?? I mean, like, I did die eventually, I know that it wasn't //there// but I very much did die, and kind of close in time... God, it was amazing.
Also, good //lord// the way that "No Surprises" was tied into it. Just. Chef's kiss.]]
(click:"amazing")[[[Back|selection]]](text-color:#5e548e)[I'd like to thank Mari for being a great friend and terrifying roleplayer, WoV in general, and you for reading.]