//in memoriam, from miles duende//
[[begin.]][[celeste]]
[[might]]
[[michael]]
[[her]] (view this one last)we fell apart. i'm sorry. i can't take back what i said, in both the "i'm sorry" sense and the "time" sense.
i wish the world was (link-reveal: "kinder")[{
(replace: ?name)[$name]
(if: $name contains "celeste")[(show: ?early)]
(if: $name contains "valentina")[(show: ?slightly_late)]
}] to you, |name>[(cycling-link: bind $name, "celeste", "santana", "valentina")].
[[back|begin.]] fuck.
i'm... i don't know what to say, really.
i never really knew you. i wish i did.
perhaps, in another place, at another time, i could've gotten the chance to be the... i could've been with you instead of with her.
god, how i wish.
i'm sorry for being a shitty kid, dad.
wish i could've been the daughter, son, whatever, that you could be proud of.
[[back|begin.]]it feels... //odd// to be thanking you. but i'm thankful for your existence.
... it ended far too short. i would've liked to see you get over that hill and forge yourself a brighter future, even in the all-consuming dark void of the zone.
but you and i both know it didn't end that way.
i've got, uh, a quote from... from resolute reverie 14 for.. for this.
[["the rains have ceased, and we have been graced with another beautiful day. but you are not here to see it."|begin.]] well. here we are.
comin' up on, what, five years?
it's... it feels weird. all of this feels weird.
we're the same, yes, but...
same person, same body, //VERY// different lives.
do i thank you? forgive you? mourn you? you're dead and i'm what remains.
''i'm'' dead and what's left is a walking memory.
[[it's all so fucked up.|fin]]but then again, i don't regret it.
each day i wake up and reaffirm my existence, letting myself know that things are somewhat okay. they can be worse. they can be better. they can be.
and i swear on my life, with my various dying breaths, with all that i am and all that i can be,
(text-colour:#5e548e)[(text-style:"bold","italic","underline","smear","condense","buoy")[that i will //never// forget any of you.]]